i wish… January 22, 2008

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I’m missing you
& I’m wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I’m all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it’s a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don”t know what else i can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I’m fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I’ll wait for you

It’s been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can’t do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain’t like that
Why can’t you look at me, your still in love with me
Don’t leave me crying.

Baby why can’t we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don”t know what else i can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I’m fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I’ll wait for you

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it’s the last thing i do

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don”t know what else i can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I’m fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I’ll wait for you

I’ll Be Waiting.

I wish he would say all those are lies.. I wish he would be back in my arms.. I wish.. Oh I so wish….. he was saying all those above…

Source: Elliott Yamin – Wait For You

set me free!! January 13, 2008

10:36pm

Today’s just another cruel day for me as yesterday. My life seems to be taking every possible route that leads to tearland or parentshatemeland in my drive. My nights are dedicated to pure whining and nose blowings and my most heavily purchased item is as usual, tissues. My love life is, ah, never mind. Well not that my love life is called never mind but I don’t exactly know where to begin talking about it because of its complicatedness.  Sorry for not bothering you with my non-exciting life recently. But the thoughts keep flowing like a river I sort of am lost for words for the stream of feelings flowing in.

I can’t say I’m living alone by myself since I still live in my parents’ house can I? Well, yeah I am not paying the rent or the electricity here but I guess I sort of am spending on my own. With the part-time job I work for I can barely cover my food , clothing, internet bill, etc. I’ve thought of moving on to a full time a higher paid job but the studies keep bothering me. My health condition doesn’t allow me to work harder and study at the same time. But god knows how much I wish I could multi-task.

The problem is that my eyes are as weak as any other part of my body. I’ve stayed with the contacts I got for nearly 2 yrs and haven’t asked my parents to change it for me since every time they start shouting at me for the costs it take these days to change a pair of spectacles. But my recent headaches have a big influence on the changed number of the contacts I got so I have to change it whatsoever.  The frame of my specs is half broken I’ve tried to keep it on my nose by the magical works of alteco and glue the past 2 years but it can’t hold on any longer. I recently bought the laptop with my savings and god help me since I got to make this specs with my own money cuz my parents gave me a deaf ear when I asked them. Now I wonder why I asked them even. So I guess my next 2 months salary is gone as well.

Ah, well what can I do if I can earn as much as I want I wouldn’t even be living under this roof with all the shouting’s from some parents who don’t want their daughter. But emancipation is not really allowed in Maldives is it? I really need to know.

Oh and I know contact lenses are much cheaper than the specs but if I wear them I can’t live under this roof so I’m definitely stuck with specs.

Really wish I could emancipate from my so called parents.

Oh and happy new year. Better late than never right?