10:36pm
Today’s just another cruel day for me as yesterday. My life seems to be taking every possible route that leads to tearland or parentshatemeland in my drive. My nights are dedicated to pure whining and nose blowings and my most heavily purchased item is as usual, tissues. My love life is, ah, never mind. Well not that my love life is called never mind but I don’t exactly know where to begin talking about it because of its complicatedness. Sorry for not bothering you with my non-exciting life recently. But the thoughts keep flowing like a river I sort of am lost for words for the stream of feelings flowing in.
I can’t say I’m living alone by myself since I still live in my parents’ house can I? Well, yeah I am not paying the rent or the electricity here but I guess I sort of am spending on my own. With the part-time job I work for I can barely cover my food , clothing, internet bill, etc. I’ve thought of moving on to a full time a higher paid job but the studies keep bothering me. My health condition doesn’t allow me to work harder and study at the same time. But god knows how much I wish I could multi-task.
The problem is that my eyes are as weak as any other part of my body. I’ve stayed with the contacts I got for nearly 2 yrs and haven’t asked my parents to change it for me since every time they start shouting at me for the costs it take these days to change a pair of spectacles. But my recent headaches have a big influence on the changed number of the contacts I got so I have to change it whatsoever. The frame of my specs is half broken I’ve tried to keep it on my nose by the magical works of alteco and glue the past 2 years but it can’t hold on any longer. I recently bought the laptop with my savings and god help me since I got to make this specs with my own money cuz my parents gave me a deaf ear when I asked them. Now I wonder why I asked them even. So I guess my next 2 months salary is gone as well.
Ah, well what can I do if I can earn as much as I want I wouldn’t even be living under this roof with all the shouting’s from some parents who don’t want their daughter. But emancipation is not really allowed in Maldives is it? I really need to know.
Oh and I know contact lenses are much cheaper than the specs but if I wear them I can’t live under this roof so I’m definitely stuck with specs.
Really wish I could emancipate from my so called parents.
Oh and happy new year. Better late than never right?
keehtha vaany magey kairy buniyyaa :S
mind, what grade are you in? sory but i HAD to ask =s
just hold on, all we can do is just hope that everythings gonna be okay.. =s
cheer up girl
I live with my parents but I pay for my own food, clothes etc. I pay the electricity bill for my ENTIRE house.
And apart from that, I still give my mom half my sal every month.
No matter how annoying or uncaring they may seem, you can’t measure what your parents have done for you, and least of all not in money. Its terrible to even think you can.
cheers
sad…
Hello velvette. I agree with u on the ‘i can never repay what my parents have done for me’ part but if u know the real details of my entire life u wudn’t be saying so.
Oh and as I have said, my health does not allow me to work full time and part time salaries are quite low and i do give more than half of my salary to my mom. Infact i keep only one quarter of the salary for myself and that is after paying for everything. i do not work anywhere which earns me a big salary which is around 2000 bucks so I don’t think I can be on any level with u comparing our earnings.
thank you for the comment and i know i can never repay them for the days i was in my mothers womb or for my birth or anything but since i was born my grandmother or aunts took care of me my mother threw me after i was born realizing that i was a girl so i hope u wont here after say anything like that to me about my parents. for how much i have tried i never got their love back.
cheers.
but derangedgirl, i don’t wanna call you that but its what you chose for yourself
im really really, really sad for you
how can a mother not want her own child?
that sickens me..
i know that what ever i say, what ever i do, it won’t change anything for you but.. i just hope that atleast something, would get better for you..
best of luck =)
thanks a lot mini that was really nice. and shweet too. lets say i’m above 18.
emancipation is such a wonderful concept. everyone is constantly in need of it at some level. ofcourse some people like u feel the need for it a whole lot more than others. i hope & pray it happens to u soon. very soon. i just have one question. have u seriously spoken with yr parents on this? or isn’t there anyone older in yr family who’d help u with yr situation?
Well, I didn’t mean to sound condescending. I suppose I did. Everyone has problems. I’m not going to ask you why you’re still living with your parents after they decided to ‘throw you out’ as a baby, or speak about my problems. Its not right, its none of my business and anyway, there’s no point in doing that just to show you that there are people worse off than you.
Just one bit of advice though… If you smile through it all, it wont seem so bad a few years from now… if you think you’re strong enough to get through, you’ll find the strenght from somewhere…. cheers